Tillitonse - A Transformational Journey Together

I can sense the question coming and am irritated….. After conducting a workshop, when I see my dad, his first question to me is “How many participants?” I typically cringe! I feel judged! A large number = good and a lower number = bad! As simple as that! And this is me…The guy who is trying to get other folks to work on their negative emotions. The question is never about the quality of participants or the discussions. Nor is it ever about how I feel about the workshop, but pretty much only about the numbers! So, what do I do? I try avoid bringing up the topic although a part of me does indeed wish to discuss this with him. I suppress both my feelings – the dread that comes with the anticipation of the question and the sense of being judged once I respond. Further, I deal with this by telling myself that this is who my father is and not to get upset by his seeming ‘insensitivity.’ And then suddenly, the shoe was on the other foot. Yesterday, two of my fellow trainers...