BALANCE ...OR RATHER, THE LACK OF IT



July was an awesome month for me. Between the 1st and 20th of the month, I scaled peaks in my new found career/passion that were exhilarating! Seven workshops and 10 coaching sessions across three countries experimenting with new approaches and each one of them paying off was intoxicating!

Yep, I was on a high....So, when I found myself down in the dumps and feeling void around the 22nd, it was a SHOCK!

Was it a coincidence that the low had to follow such a high? I asked myself repeatedly. Then I stopped and just stayed with this feeling...

I had to dig deep and shut myself in. So, on July 25th, I got out of the multiple Whatsapp groups/Facebook, avoided stepping out of home and except for going to yoga (asana) class, I spent time journelling and holding the space for this angst.

Creating this space provided opportunities for skeletons in the cupboard to be uncovered. Ah yes, deep conversations with my coach my wife and daughter were important milestones in this journey within. And slowly as the creaky skeletons and other shadows and other exiled feelings emerged, the weight seemed to lift....and then they came soon crashing down. Up and down the emotional roller-coaster

I recently heard this most profound statement - "What's in the way, is the way!" What a wonderfully insightful line. Cant't say what did the trick...but staying with the angst through these conversations, surrounding myself with the warmth of a recent nurturing gathering of like minded people over four days, creating time for the churn within and keeping to a regular asana routine.....seemed to have helped restore the balance.....

BALANCE! ah, yes, the elusive quality. The deep yearning for peace indeed seems to require balance. I lead workshops on Balance and it is ironical that I had not devoted enough attention to the very topic. An important lesson indeed. A growth lesson.

Onward ho.....





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  1. paigepassanoAugust 12, 2016 at 10:08 AM

    most intriguing, sanjay. thanks for sharing your thoughts on this. I love the picture of sanjana on your head. good luck to you on this journey.

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