Reflecting on 2024: A Year of Being Humbled in Mind and Body

 

As I look back on 2024, three dominant themes emerged—each shaping the year in significant ways. Alongside these themes, three additional reflections stood out, all of which I have tried to capture authentically. 

1. Navigating A Destructive Emotional Pattern

One of the most important themes of 2024 was my effort to manage my emotions, particularly a recurring pattern that has shaped my reactions over the years. Early in the year, I lost my temper lashing out at people close to me. The outburst was exacerbated by having a few drinks.

Upon reflection in the weeks and months that followed, I recognized this as part of a deeper pattern—triggered by feeling rejected, undervalued, or treated insensitively in situations that mattered deeply to me. The “volcano” of emotions that erupted during such moments was destructive for me and my relationships with others. 

After that incident, I looked within - It was clear to that it up to me to work on this issue without expecting others to change or even support. Then I committed to working on this pattern. Over the course of the year, I indeed did so – While I did not ‘overcome’ this pattern, I almost always at least stayed quiet in similar situations instead of reacting. While silence sometimes turned into sullenness, it helped me wait for the emotional storm to pass. With the guidance of compassion and wisdom practices, I am finding a way to navigate these waves.

A key insight came from one of my teachers Asha, who articulated the universal insecurity of self—the constant need for validation, whether through praise or criticism. This “aha moment” helped me see my reactions in a larger context. Understanding that this need for validation is universal—not just mine—helped alleviate some of its power. While this is still a work in progress, I am reminding myself that even some marginal progress is good. 

2. Scratching the Itch to Contribute

For years, I worked in the non-profit sector, where the impact of my efforts on vulnerable communities brought deep fulfilment. In 2024, I rediscovered this sense of purpose when the incoming Rotary Club president, Chela, asked me to lead the vocational services vertical.

This opportunity allowed me to start contributing as early as January, even though the official year began in July. I enjoyed bringing my past experience in the development sector into this role—focusing on creating a vision, organizing teams, and driving tangible results. It was gratifying to see progress on the ground, and the energy of working with passionate individuals and with a leader who I both like and respect has been energising.  

That said, while I’ll continue to give my best until June 2025, I’ve decided not to take on another year. For now, the itch has been scratched. My focus remains on leaving the vocational services vertical in a stronger place than I found it—a legacy I feel content with.

3. The Journey Within: Bir and the Tribe of Colourful Pants

A highlight of the year was a week-long course in Applied Buddhist Psychology in the serene town of Bir, led by my teacher Nivi. Beyond the teachings, what stood out was reconnecting with a group of like-minded individuals who were deeply committed to growth, wisdom practices, and living authentic lives. We learned, laughed and lived a simple life.

For me, Bir became symbolic of freedom and agency—represented in a playful way by the colourful pyjama pants many of all wore, epitomizing this shared sense of liberation. Interacting with this “tribe of colourful pants,” many of whom were young and leading unconventional lives, was energizing and validating for one who has followed the road less taken. 

This trip deepened my commitment to inner work and wisdom practices. Ongoing courses and one-on-one sessions with Nivi throughout the year reinforced this path. The journey within continues to be a central part of my life, one that brings fulfilment and joy.

 

Additional Reflections

4. The Joy of Having Sanjana Home

The last six months of 2024 were made special by having Sanjana at home. Her presence brought lightness, laughter, and wisdom. One particular moment stands out: when Lata and I were irritated about a situation, Sanjana calmly reminded us, “What’s the point of being irritated? It doesn’t help.” Her simple yet profound equanimity continues to inspire me. Her seeming organic focus on the important stuff is great to see.

Simply said, I love the version of myself when I’m around her—more open, more willing to learn, laughing and simply happier. 

5. Letting Go of Work, for Now

In focusing deeply on Rotary role, I consciously reduced creating new opportunities for my coaching and training work this year - I find joy in focus, and focus does demand sacrifice. Yet, I missed the 'aliveness' that these bring. 

 

6. Physical Health: A Year of Recovery

Recovering from the remnants of Dengue, which I contracted in August 2023, continued to affect my physical health for much of 2024. The persistent pain in my feet kept me away from yoga, a practice that has always been central to my well-being.

Toward the end of the year, I finally restarted yoga and feel much better physically. While I’ve gained some weight, I’m grateful for my overall health and am committed to prioritizing both mental and physical well-being in 2025.

 

Looking Ahead to 2025: Focus and Fulfilment

As I move into 2025, an old yearning has indeed resurfaced. I find great joy in facilitating group settings. The energy of facilitating interactive sessions with individuals committed to personal growth has always been deeply fulfilling for me. I am sending out my deep intention to the universe for more such opportunities in the coming year.

At the same time, my priority is to return to the foundational practices that keep me grounded—yoga, meaningful connections, laughter, contribution and ongoing mind training. If I can stay true to these and keep in mind the abundance I have (a supportive and healthy family, a circle of close friends, financial security, good health, and agency to pursue my passions) 2025, I am sure, will be fun and fulfilling indeed.